Who Are You Trusting?

As I was driving, as I often do, I was talking to God. We have all kinds of conversations when I am behind the wheel of my car. Driver beware! Anyways usually in the morning I will say my prayers, or just talk to God and I don’t care who sees me any more. I can remember in the beginning, I would wear my headset to my telephone so people would think I was talking on the phone and not think I was some sort of loonie tune behind the wheel. Ok maybe I AM a loonie tune behind the wheel, but this loonie is one that loves her Lord!

But as I was driving home this one day, while we were talking......... it was like something spoke to my spirit and it hit me hard. REALLY HARD! I have not been trusting God!

It all came rushing in... all the little run ins with the OW, it was not me being hurt, or her being cruel, it wasn’t her been vindictive or me being defensive, it wasn’t even her, it was the enemy and I fell for it every time.

"Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour."
1Peter 5:8

And WHY did I fall for it every time? Well let’s see there are a number of things. Pride for one, we often by our own actions show we know how to do it better than God. That is pride loud and clear. And our Lord, he will stand back and let us trip ourselves up. Why? Well we are like kids. How often have you told your own child NOT to do something and they did it anyway?

I can remember when Stephen my oldest son was just about 2 years of age, we had went camping by the river at Christoval, a beautiful river, with awesome water and just simply gorgeous with the trees and all. Anyway, we had a camp fire and we were all sitting around it,,, and a chunk of coal had sort of fell over a bit from the flame. Stephen was so fascinated with the way it glowed; it was certainly pretty, but very very HOT! And we would tell Stephen NO burn baby, Hot and we would grab his hand. Well he finally lunged and got that piece of pretty coal and began yelling in pain. No matter how much we told him no, its hot will burn he would not listen. This was me concerning the other woman, sigh. God thru other Christians and even he was telling me himself BURN BABY..... but I just had to have MY piece of hot coal...

The other main reason I fell for it every time was I did not trust God in my situation! OUCH! OK slap the forehead! I justified it, rationalized it, and probably got a bit self-righteous over it. But the fact remains I did NOT trust God! I began to feel tears fall down my face as the realization came over me and I asked God to forgive me. I asked Him to be patient with me and that I would learn to trust Him in ALL things.

Yes I said learn. I have been a grown up for a long time and learning to come to Him as a child at times is a struggle. I have X amount of years of wrong thinking and wrong beliefs to overcome, but through Christ I am an overcomer! I AM victorious in Him! So now that bit of doubt creeps in, I say out loud Lord I TRUST you! I know faith (and trust) comes by hearing. And because our God is so awesome, he IS patient with me, and loving and so truly amazing.

So what or who are YOU trusting today? The enemies lies? Yourself? The world? Or our heavenly Father, the one who made you from the dust of the earth, breathed life in you, and loved you enough to bring you on this journey with Him?
Aug 14, 2007

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